In "jewelry," Abby Powledge describes the rare feeling of being chosen, then watches that security dissolve as the relationship proves her deepest fear right. She had believed she was finally enough, only to find herself balancing on the lowest rung of his attention, waiting for a call that never comes. The image of removing her jewelry to lie on his chest becomes a symbol of vulnerable self-abandonment, and reclaiming those small adornments marks a return to herself. She refuses to beg for a forever he will not offer.
jewelry Lyrics by Abby Powledge
For the first time in my life
I had felt like someone chose me
Over friends all the more beautiful, experienced, and kind
I was terrified you’d leave me when I ran out of surprises
And I can’t believe that you’re proving me right
Held a mirror to my ego and my humor and my body
And this flavor of self conscious you had pulled out the rug
I have never been the girl that turns a man to love a process
You are living proof that I was not enough
I will not beg if you don’t want me for forever
I will not ask for you to send me your best
I feel myself again now that I no longer
Take off my jewelry to lay down on your chest
For the first time in my life I had felt like someone saw me
You watched me try to balance on your ladder’s lowest rung
I thought we were better friends and both adults and you would call me
And I can’t believe that you’re proving me wrong
I will not beg if you don’t want me for forever
I will not ask for you to send me your best
I feel myself again now that I no longer
Take off my jewelry to lay down on your chest
