God, Am I Too Far Gone? Lyrics by Ashes of Eden
I’m sitting there and swallowed it again
Are you there?
I keep rehearsing what I tell you, like you were there when it happened
Make a softer version of the truth and hope you never ask yet
There’s a message on my phone from someone I should answer
I keep waiting to feel different before I say what matters
I was wrong
I’ve been calling it the past like that means I put it down
If I finally ask forgiveness, do I have to say it aloud?
aloud
Am I too far gone?
Or have I just been hiding too long?
If I come with nothing left to say, will you hear me anyway?
Will you hear me?
I don’t know where to start
So I’ll start with what I’ve done
God, am I too far gone?
Am I too far gone?
Don’t let me go
I drove past the street they live on
Found the reason not to stop
Had an apology beside me in a letter never dropped
I’ve been asking for a clean slate
They still wake up with the cost
I can’t make their hurting smaller by explaining what I lost
I know that now
If forgiveness has a doorway
I’ve been sleeping on the steps
Too ashamed to turn the handle
Too afraid there’s nothing left
Let me in
God, am I too far gone?
Or have I just been hiding too long?
If I come with nothing left to say
Will you hear me anyway?
Will you hear me?
I don’t know where to start
So I’ll start with what I’ve done
God, am I too far gone?
Am I too far gone?
Don’t let me go
I don’t need to hear I’m innocent
I need to learn to face the day
Without making every wrong turn an excuse to stay this way
I can change
I can send the letter
I can make the call
I can tell the truth without explaining it away
No more hiding
I’m done hiding
God, am I too far gone?
Or have I just been hiding too long?
Here I am with nothing left to say
Can you meet me here today?
I’m still here
I don’t know where to start, so I’ll start with what I’ve done
God, am I too far gone?
Am I too far gone?
I’m coming home
I finally said your name and let the silence stayI’m listening