Hold Back Tears Lyrics by Conway the Machine
Yeah
Hmm
Gotta hold back tears sometimes, man
I think about my *** Chris, I gotta hold back tears
Think about B-Wiz, I gotta hold back tears
Think about Melec’s son, I gotta hold back tears
Think about Derek Bishop, gotta hold back tears
Think about Monet’s son, I gotta hold back tears
Monet is like a brother to me, ***, we go back years
Think about my grandmother, gotta hold back tears
Crazy Eight ridin’, gotta hold back tears
Ayo, I cried when Dough Boy died
I cried when ‘Chine *** Black died
Tears burst out of my eyes
Yo, I cried when D-Black died
Ayo, I cried when ‘Liq Racks died
Tears burst out of my eyes
Yeah
Somebody said I sounded depressed in a lot of my songs now
***, hell yeah, I’m depressed, I lost a child, ***
You know the love don’t feel real no more, homie
I’m *** up for real
You ever lost somebody close to your heart, then you know the feeling
To get Crazy Eight and my granny back, I’d give back these millions
I wish she lived long enough to meet my two children
People don’t know what I been goin’ through and what I been feelin’
Truth is I’m spiralin’, feel like I’m ’bout to lose it
My label only concern is, "When you turnin’ in the music?"
And I ain’t tryna come off ungrateful, that’d be foolish
It turned me into a recluse, but I ain’t the dude to make excuses
It’s useless, they like, "Machine, why you ghost us for?"
I care a lot until I don’t no more
I isolate myself to heal so I don’t hurt no more
Keep pickin’ at that same scab, gon’ leave an open sore
Look like I’m good on the surface, inside, I’m hurtin’
I just hope when it’s over, I’m worthy of Allah’s mercy
Have mercy
I think about my *** Chris, I gotta hold back tears
Think about B-Wiz, I gotta hold back tears
Think about Melec’s son, I gotta hold back tears
Think about Derek Bishop, gotta hold back tears
Think about Monet’s son, I gotta hold back tears
Monet is like a brother to me, ***, we go back years
Think about my grandmother, gotta hold back tears
Crazy Eight ridin’, gotta hold back tears
Ayo, I cried when Dough Boy died
I cried when ‘Chine *** Black died
Tears burst out of my eyes
Yo, I cried when D-Black died
Ayo, I cried when ‘Liq Racks died
Tears burst out of my eyes
Yo, Demond, this Crazy Eight, man
I was just callin’ to see how you was doin’, I ain’t what ***, man
I heard your new songs, man, I’m proud of you, man
I love you, man
You know what I’m sayin’, keep doin’ your thing, man
And don’t let nobody ask you for ***
‘Cause ain’t nobody give you ***, you heard?
Love you, one