"Nerdeydin de 2.0" by Doçend & Bedo feat. Bedo traces the wreckage after a love that dried tears only to cause them, where one side forgot overnight what the other could never erase. The repeated question of where they were while nightmares and fires closed in turns self-blame outward, asking why comfort arrived only after the leaving. The image of being lulled like a lullaby captures how trust itself became the trap, soft and false. What remains is the ache of realizing the last shared laugh can be forgotten, even as the wounds keep collecting.
Nerdeydin de 2.0 Lyrics by Doçend & Bedo
(Feat. Bedo)
Göz yaşımı ağlayarak kuruttun
Benim silemediklerimi bir gecede unuttun
Seni göremezdim somut değil soyuttun
Ben de öyle saftım ya ninni gibi uyuttun
Birikir yaralar silinmez biliyorum
Seninle ilk defa ölünmez biliyorum
Gözümle gördüğüm aynı değildi biliyorum
Benimle son defa güldüğünü unutabiliyorum
Beni kabuslar sarmışken neredeydim ben?
Sen de sevmedin ki sen de kaldın geride ve parçalandı her solukta
Neredeydim ben?
Beni yangınlar almışken neredeydim ben?
Sen de gittin işte gitme dedim bağırdım
Herkesi duydun ama sen bir tek bana sardın
Bugün doğam yarın yuvam beni sevmeyecek misin?
Diyelim ihtiyacım oldu yanıma gelmeyecek misin?
Düştüğümde kimse yok ki kalktım artık neredesin?
Bu yolculuk da bitti sanki senle son bir perdesin
Beni onun kadar düşünmedin
Her gecede dondum ben sen o kadar üşümedin
Dışın yakar kimi ama yakar içim beni
Gözlerimde ufaktan da hiç bu kadar küçülmedin
Göz yaşımı ağlayarak kuruttun
Benim silemediklerimi bir gecede unuttun
Seni göremezdim somut değil soyuttun
Ben de öyle saftım ya ninni gibi uyuttun
Göz yaşımı ağlayarak kuruttun
Benim silemediklerimi bir gecede unuttun
Seni göremezdim somut değil soyuttun
Ben de öyle saftım ya ninni gibi uyuttun
Beni kabuslar sarmışken neredeydim ben?
Sen de sevmedin ki sen de kaldın geride ve parçalandı her solukta
Neredeydim ben?
Beni yangınlar almışken neredeydim ben?
Sen de gittin işte gitme dedim bağırdım
Herkesi duydun ama sen bir tek bana sardın
Neredeydim ben?
Birikir yaralar silinmez biliyorum
Seninle ilk defa ölünmez biliyorum
Gözümle gördüğüm aynı değildi biliyorum
Benimle son defa güldüğünü unutabiliyorum
(English Translation)
You dried my tears by crying
You forgot in one night what I couldn’t wipe away
I couldn’t see you, you weren’t concrete, you were abstract
And I was so naive, you lulled me to sleep like a lullaby
Wounds pile up, they don’t fade, I know
With you, for the first time, you don’t die, I know
What I saw with my eyes wasn’t the same, I know
I can forget that you laughed with me for the last time
When nightmares surrounded me, where was I?
You didn’t love either, you stayed behind too and shattered with every breath
Where was I?
When fires consumed me, where was I?
You left too, I said don’t go, I screamed
You heard everyone, but you only held onto me
Today my nature, tomorrow my home, won’t you love me?
Say I needed you, won’t you come to me?
When I fell, there was no one, I got up now, where are you?
This journey ended too, like you’re one last act with me
You didn’t think of me as much as him
I froze every night, you never got that cold
Your outside burns some, but my inside burns me
In my eyes, you never got this small, not even slightly
You dried my tears by crying
You forgot in one night what I couldn’t wipe away
I couldn’t see you, you weren’t concrete, you were abstract
And I was so naive, you lulled me to sleep like a lullaby
You dried my tears by crying
You forgot in one night what I couldn’t wipe away
I couldn’t see you, you weren’t concrete, you were abstract
And I was so naive, you lulled me to sleep like a lullaby
When nightmares surrounded me, where was I?
You didn’t love either, you stayed behind too and shattered with every breath
Where was I?
When fires consumed me, where was I?
You left too, I said don’t go, I screamed
You heard everyone, but you only held onto me
Where was I?
Wounds pile up, they don’t fade, I know
With you, for the first time, you don’t die, I know
What I saw with my eyes wasn’t the same, I know
I can forget that you laughed with me for the last time
