ETERNAL BOY Lyrics by Ghais Guevara
He’s not broken, he’s floating
Half man, half boy
A ghost of who he could’ve been
Thou punishment is now to entertain, chain hang low, consequential weight
It’s Goyard, Jouissance, Puer Aeternus
Purely punchin up because he nervous
I had signed a contract that went deeper than my label
I signed to be labeled
Mascot for rebellious fables
Bearer of accountable nature
Fallible statements
Held to my face like this you
Valid and anguished
I might’ve struck first when the threat wasn’t clear
But why the fuck the threat even near
Hip hop supposed to be the safe space, right
Where men become men because our men at home won’t fight
So why my adolescence spent carryin the torch of the tyrants
I stared at that mirror for hours
If only he knew how to stay
Live-in landlady wasn’t home so I savored
Every single second I could see beyond my face
And right into my brain
Schizophrenic nature in my traces cause Brenda had a baby
Not a Pac reference
I’m tellin you life is meta
I don’t separate the art from artist, I know better
And in this abstract, absurd world
They can bury it
So I pierce the Veil on horse and a chariot
And I keep it real, eat the embarrassment
Cause if I waste the skill then swear I’m pathetic
Persona disorder
Weave me thru the web back home
Where I needn’t medicate for my zone
And Jouissance’s voice turns to stone