"big fat crush" by Haiden Henderson captures the dizzy paralysis of hiding overwhelming affection. A piano falls from the sky while an eyelash is blown from an eye, and looking down becomes the only defense against blurting out the truth. The elephant in the room is the crush itself, heavy enough to crush while remaining invisible to the other. Physical signs like slowing heartbeats, pins and needles, and tangled words betray what silence tries to protect. The repeated wish is simply to be noticed, and the falling feels both terrifying and hopeful.
big fat crush Lyrics by Haiden Henderson
A piano falls from the sky
As you blow an eyelash out of my eye
I look down when you look at me
So I don’t say what I’ll regret
When you’re telling me to make a wish
I swear it’s written on my face
Can you tell when I start turning red
The wish is asking to be made?
These walls are closing
And I feel the truth encroaching
These walls are closing
And I hope it brings us closer baby ooh
There’s an elephant in the room
And you haven’t got a clue
I got a big fat crush on you
And it’s crushing me too
I’ve been falling
I’ve been falling
I’ve been falling
Down, down
Are you watching
Are you watching
Are you watching
Now?
Please notice my heart rate is slowing
I got pins and needles
I’m choking on Campbells
My words are alphabet soup
These walls are closing
And I feel the truth encroaching
These walls are closing
And I hope it brings us closer baby, ooh
There’s an elephant in the room
And you haven’t got a clue
I got a big fat crush on you
And it’s crushing me too
You sweep me off my feet
You’re stronger than you seem
You sweep me off my feet
You’re stronger than you seem, yeah
You sweep me off my feet
You’re stronger than you seem
You sweep me off my feet
You’re stronger than you seem
