Appointments Lyrics by Jay Som
Heard that you’re back
You changed your mind
Wanted to feel
Something you’re not
Name on your tongue
Coughing it up
Bags on the sidewalk
Thought you were done
Don’t call
Don’t write
Loose ends
Missed your appointment
Your head on my lap
Changed your phone background
Smiling again
I wanted to see you
I wanted to cry
I wanted to let myself live in a lie
I don’t have the reasons
I don’t wanna try
I don’t wanna try
I don’t wanna try
Don’t call
Don’t run
Loose ends
Am I still on your mind?
Don’t call
Don’t run
Loose ends
I fell in love
Fits like a glove
Holding the grains
Quick in the sun
I don’t wanna cry
I don’t wanna cry
I don’t wanna cry
I don’t wanna cry
The Meaning of “Appointments” by Jay Som
Jay Som just dropped “Appointments” this week, and it feels like a quiet storm rolling in. It’s the second single from her upcoming album Belong, arriving just days after “Past Lives,” and it carries that same heavy, dreamy ache she does so well.
Heard that you’re back / You changed your mind
That opening line just guts me. It’s that moment you find out an old ghost has returned, and your stomach drops. You can feel the resignation in her voice, the weariness of someone who’s been through this cycle before and just can’t do it again.
I wanted to see you / I wanted to cry / I wanted to let myself live in a lie
God, that’s the whole conflict right there, isn’t it? The brutal honesty of wanting something so badly you’re willing to pretend, even when you know it’s a fantasy. It’s that painful, human tug-of-war between your heart and your head.
In the end, “Appointments” feels like a song about the exhaustion of hope. It’s about finally choosing your own peace over the chaos of someone else’s indecision. Sometimes, not trying is the bravest thing you can do.