INTRO APOCALIPTO Lyrics English Translation by Kendo Kaponi
(feat. Jay Wheeler)
I hadn’t seen you, why are you crying?
I’m crying over love
And what are you doing here at this hour?
I’m burying, I’m burying the two loves of my life
And can I ask who they are?
Yeah, yeah, I’m burying my son
And underneath my son, underneath my son I buried God
God, no, no
No, no
No, no
My Christ, I wanna talk to you in parts, even though I’m not ready
Here I go again with doubtful faith and mixed feelings
And I feel like it’s your fault, and I’m talking to Pulpa about the times I pray and cry to you, but you leave me on read like an idiot
I always ask you for advice, and you, you’ve seen me at night interviewing my reflection
In that mirror I see, that’s not exactly Kendo
And if that’s how I’m seeing myself, I really don’t understand it
While time runs out, I’ve kept getting older
And patching up these pieces that have kept breaking on me
Me not wanting to shower, and the steam from the water fogged up the glass
With my hand I start wiping it clean
And there, I see myself again, and I don’t undress
Because I have a conflict with myself, excuse me, Christ
And you damn addict, thinking you’re clever
Depression is crushing you and everyone has seen it
It’s so ugly that God steps away from our desires
Only you count on me, and this life is a countdown
I love God in a world of atheists
And if heaven can’t see us, then I can’t see either
But here we go, come on, talk, God, is this how we are?
Of slave and master, with you I lose no matter where we enter
Unforgivable the way I protected my life, the situation got out of my hands
And out of count, but you have to understand me, my life has been violent
And because every time I apologize to you, your response is a language we don’t speak
The people I love most, they all end up dead
As a kid they left me alone, literally
For better or worse, everything has its end
There was never a Christmas, as far back as I can remember
Happiness and the cancer in my grandma, both were terminal
And in the same damn hospital it was terrifying
I didn’t understand what they were saying, but I was scared
Me outside listening to the doctor giving the diagnosis
Acquired immunodeficiency, she was strong and she was fighting, she wasn’t giving up
Luck was watching over her, it was almost a goodbye
The nurse said: “Kid, I know you take care of her with love, but love doesn’t cure AIDS”
I kept growing up the best I could, understanding there are grays even in the clouds
And that I have to keep going even if I doubt it
There are things I could forget and others I couldn’t
Like seeing Movie’s family in six caskets
Jehovah, I know you decide what stays and what goes
What makes it and what doesn’t make it to eternity
Ángel and his lady, that I can maybe understand
But Jayden was only four years old
God bless Casper and his trial
But, brother, there are things that take time, and others that time takes away
How does God expect me not to explode? If you look at the details, He gave me talent to leave the streets
And not turn back, He always takes away what He gives
Knowing that I shared the blessing with Pa
And it’s not that I do whatever He asks, it’s that there’s only one life, and rapping was the way out
The day of taking himself out was coming, you heard all the times we were talking about it
Talking about you and with you, we made you promises, you know what I mean
There’s no excuse, you let my great friend die
You’ve never loved me, and you think I don’t notice
You never keep promises between us
Can you imagine how I felt when I saw the photo?
Of Pacho dead and his body broken
Rest in peace, from your family
And the texts: “José, I’m sorry, read the Bible”
But who can read when their soul is lukewarm? (Now, my other brother)
Joaquín, I love you so much, so much, that I’m still grieving you
My brother, my role model, I wouldn’t call you and you’d get jealous
Last night I heard you, you called me, Che, I got emotional, and another sleepless night
And you watched me lose what I loved most and you pulled me out of the ground
Giving me strength you told me things I never reveal, and others I do tell
In the moment you told me: “Satan has your mind” and you pulled me off the hook
Thank you, Joaco, nobody can fill your space
I swear I fought everyone so they wouldn’t cremate you
And even though I didn’t pull it off, I still bought you the casket you wanted for my boy
I hope I find you in another life, Joaquín Cintrón
Things were left unsaid, like “I’m sorry”
Curse or blessing, I don’t even know how many times I’ve died to get to this version
Memories remain, life goes on, and before it flips
I return to the streets with a dead soul
To forget everything, except the problems I opened the door for
And the one who didn’t forget, keeps it open
Depressed, but I don’t let go of the bitches
You want war? Then come through, I got nothing to lose, let’s go to the dance
I got two Lambos, bitches, in nighter mode
And an Aventador that opens its doors in the air
And in Cataño a Lan is what I drive
And if it’s for the mountains, the Can-Am with crab crutches
I proved it, I acted like I didn’t, but I did get involved
They killed my friend and I bled out
And I’m going fast, and if there’s wounded, they’re not leaving the hospital
And El Preda comes out to dig up a war that’s owed to him
Noise, they beat one dressed as a cop, and he won the war dressed as a outlaw
And I don’t remember more, the time I’ve fronted, but whatever
It doesn’t matter who’s in front, if from behind we run faster
You all look to live at full speed
But in that decision we lose our direction
And just like now, a thousand times I’ve gone running
Living normal as if everything’s still the same
Until I get home, and I feel the world again, again sinking
And that everything was fine, that nothing happened to me
That my son and my brother are alive, they just haven’t called me
And I swear to you, that’s how I’ve been feeling
That everything was fine because I was distracting myself
You know how many times I’ve hidden to cry?
To scream: “Stop this fucking world, I want to get off”
And thanks to drugs I’ve calmed my system, until they also became a problem
Everyone showing off their achievements, I just watched
I didn’t post, I just wrote
My fans looking for me and I hid
So they wouldn’t realize that these years I was just surviving
There were so many reasons
And the tattoo on my face, the promise to not celebrate anything while I’m still alive
It’s a life of mourning that I can’t fit into
Staring at nothing, but thinking about everything
Like the pastor who said: “In life you won’t be able to know if your soul could ascend or descend”
Another Christian said: “Son, those who didn’t repent are already doomed”
I didn’t ask, I just thought “faith isn’t about believing”
And everyone says God says things as He sees fit
I don’t know, I just know we need to talk more about God and less for Him
Jehovah, you know I’m strong, that life bit me
That I didn’t bleed every time luck cut me
That I never got infected when doubt bit me
And this time you sank me so deep my soul didn’t swim
I feel like I did it and he paid for it
That because of me he got left behind on the road
The tragedy tangled me up, the news sedated me
My son had an accident that killed us both
In the heart there’s gravity that decides what stays and what rises
I taught him about you, the Old Testament, and your new laws
About Jesus, and the cross He carries for us
That with His blood He paid so nobody owes
The rainbow is a promise, you can see it when it rains
I had to teach him about life, about the trial
Because in his house they didn’t even know about Adam and Eve
Add and subtract, if I deserved to die, why did you have to include him?
And it was like you hated me
You gave me a beautiful son, with talent, he even sang
You could’ve asked for my life and I would’ve given it to you myself
Running, you don’t know the pride he gave me
When Frandu would call saying: “Kaponi, the kid is going at it”
And that thought is the one I can’t beat
Not having told him that I felt the feeling I hid from him just to watch him keep growing
I collected his music from his friends
Because I want us to make an album together
But his voice hurts me, and between him and having to choose
Fuck, I can’t believe it
My life was his, and you, you were supposed to protect him too
And if you look inside, you can see it
The fear I never had just shrunk
And, and let me tell you, the good thing you gave me was fame and it only amplifies what I feel
Imagine what it’s doing to me right now, ah-ah
The phenomenon in the Metro
I broke everyone who ran against me in the 400 meters
I broke life, the Retros and I don’t plan on sewing them back
Because this is the last one that, that I plan on losing to you
You’re all-powerful and you know what I’m gonna do
And that I’m sick of this shitty life, and that I’m gonna give it back to you, but direct
When I put this comb in, yours and mine disconnect today
And look at the omniscient one of all these people
The past and present, of, again absent
Because he can’t do anything, like that night of my son in his accident
And write this in your mind, that I hate you, I hate you and I despise you
Like you with the human project, listen to this
We’ve all seen your flaws, and it’s tiring being in your image and likeness
I get upset, and if you’re so divine like the rest says
I forget the past, you forget the future, and try to stop me in
This
José, José
José, open the door
No, I wanna be alone, give me a break
He doesn’t wanna open, but talk to him, because you’re on speaker and he can hear you
José, God bless you, listen to me, you don’t have to answer
I called to tell you that God says that if you take your life, you lose the last chance to ever see your son again
I know you’ve felt alone for a while
That there are many questions I still haven’t answered
You barely smile anymore, you feel incomplete
You’ve lost your faith, it’s okay, I understand you
You got on your knees, and in so much darkness
You thought I wasn’t there, but I never left
I also suffered my son and it hurt me that the world forgot about me
But I’m still here
Holding your hand, even if it feels in vain
Take refuge in me, together we’ll heal it
When you lose your strength, I’ll be your fortress
I was always here, like the Bible on your table
I am the King of Kings, the one who can do everything
The one who will come when you least expect it
Don’t lose hope, I’ll show you the way
Hug me, let me be your best friend
I wanna tell you that that night I saved your son
That he’s with me in heaven
That since I know you miss him, I want you to hear him sing one more time
I’ve been unable to describe
The happiest moments, and now it’s time to heal our scars and survive
Alone because in this sea there are no waves left to sail and I just have to keep going
Dragging myself on the ground, screaming to the sky for your comfort
It’s hard for me to live, it’s hard for me to live
I’ve been unable to describe
The happiest moments, and now it’s time to heal our scars and survive
Alone because in this sea there are no waves left to sail and I just have to keep going
Dragging myself on the ground, screaming to the sky for your comfort
It’s hard for me to live, it’s hard for me to live
Hey
Cheniel, my love, we ran out of time on earth
But the first song on the album I made with you, and just wait until you see the surprise
To all my fans I apologize for the way I expressed myself
I just wanted to, I wanted you to see what I was feeling and what I’ve felt
And just understand that when a man loses a wife, he becomes a widower
When a child loses a father or a mother, he becomes an orphan
But when a man loses a son, when a man loses a son, there’s no name for it
APOCALYPTO