I’m Not Okay Lyrics by May Dies Last
Everybody asks me how I’m doing
I’m good comes out before they look away
No one wants the answer that takes longer
They want a word that lets them leave okay
I’ve learned to laugh at all the right moments
Keep my voice steady, keep it alive
The better I get at looking normal
The less they see I’m barely getting by
I say I’m fine because it ends the conversation
Do you want the truth?
Like just an answer you can handle
I’m not okay
I just got good at hiding it
You hear me say the words you wanted
Then act like that’s the end of it
I don’t need you to fix me
I just need you not to look away
So when you ask me how I’m doing
Let me say I’m not okay
You tell me I can always talk to you
Then check the time when I begin
You say that I should let somebody help me
But helping means you have to sit with it
Maybe you don’t know what you should tell me
Maybe silence makes you feel afraid
I don’t need the perfect words to save me
I only need you not to turn away
I kept saying what was easy so you wouldn’t pull away
I won’t say I’m fine
Just to make you comfortable
I’m not okay
I just got good at hiding it
You hear me say the words you wanted
Then act like that’s the end of it
I don’t need you to fix me
I just need you not to look away
So when you ask me how I’m doing
Let me say I’m not okay
I made it easy
Don’t miss the signs
I gave you I’m fine every single time
I don’t blame you for believing every answer that I gave
ut I wish that once you’d looked at me and asked me twice
I don’t need a speech, a promise, or a way to make it right
I just need one place where I don’t have to lie
I’m not okay
Because I am done with hiding it
Don’t ask me how I am today
If fine is all you want from me
I don’t need you to fix me
I just need you not to look away
So if you ask me how I’m doing, stay when I say I’m not okay