I Said What I Said Lyrics by NeveahSoul
I used to swallow my feelings
Just to keep the room at peace
Smiled through the breaking
While it took too much from me
I made my truth sound smaller
So your pride could stay untouched
Called it being patient
But it cost me way too much
Now you say I changed
Like that’s supposed to make me sorry
But the girl who stayed quiet
Had to leave that story
I said what I said
I’m not taking it back
I won’t dress up the truth
Just to make it hurt less
You can call me cold
You can call me wrong
But I bent for too long
Trying to belong
I said what I said
And I meant it this time
I won’t lose myself
Just keep you in my life
I used to fix the silence
Even when I didn’t break it
Took the blame for your distance
Just so I could save it
But I’m done explaining pain
To the hands that made it heavy
Done begging people to hear me
When my heart was speaking clearly
Now you say I’m hard
Like softness made me safe
But I learned peace is not silence
And love should not feel like shame
I said what I said
I’m not taking it back
I won’t dress up the truth
Just to make it hurt less
You can call me cold
You can call me wrong
But I bent for too long
Trying to belong
I said what I said
And I meant it this time
I won’t lose myself
Just keep you in my life
Maybe you love me quiet, maybe you love me small
Maybe you only stayed when I carried it all
But I’m not that woman, I left her behind
She cried through the lesson so I could survive
And if my truth offends you
Then let it be clear
I’m not shrinking again
Just to keep you near
I said what I said
I’m not taking it back
I won’t dress up the truth
Just to make it hurt less
You can call me cold
You can call me wrong
But I bent for too long
Trying to belong
I said what I said
And I meant it this time
I won’t lose myself
Just keep you in my life