Feel Better Lyrics – Penelope Scott
I don’t wanna feel better
No one’s ever gonna love me like that again
I don’t wanna get over you
I wanna sit with you in bed
I don’t wanna feel better
I’d give anything to miss you again
I don’t wanna get over it
I wanna get under it instead
The book sits on top of clean and messy blankets
On a bed that ***’ creaks at night
When I get in it late
And late at night I’m chugging Gatorade
And someone’s breaking up when I *** up
Because I know I’ll never know just what to say
I’m a communist, a ***
An MPDG ***
Or I’m a sad girl in a dorm room
Living out the shady Christian plot of “Twilight”
Or “The Bible” or “The Lover” by Duras
Or I’m just really ***’ selfish
And really ***’ lost
But someone loved me
Someone *** loved me
Someone *** loved me
And I ***’ loved them too
Goddamn it, I was worth something
I ***’ learned something
I had my I had my cake
I ate it
It ate me too
And god no
I don’t wanna feel better
*Sharp breathing*
(I don’t wanna feel better)
(I’d give anything to miss you again)
(I don’t wanna get over it)
(I wanna rip it to shreds)
We kept our liquor in a suitcase
Underneath my bed
And we drank it to go out or just stay in
Or to feel sad, but in a hot way in
A way I’ll ***’ never have again
The sun has began to set
I’m a socialist, Marxist, libertarian ***
I am an awkward teenage version
And I swear to kinda laugh a lot in bed
But other times I cry or don’t make noise at all
I’d give my life to have a room that feels that small
‘Cause someone loved me
Someone *** loved me
Someone *** loved me
I loved them too
Goddamn it, I was worth something
I ***’ earned something
I had a right to die
A right to live
A right to choose, too
And God no
Of course, I don’t wanna feel better *Laugh*
Can you *** imagine?
No one’s ever gonna love me like that again
I don’t wanna get over it
I wanna rip the stars to shreds
I don’t wanna feel better
Of course it hurt
Of course it ***’ hurt
It hurt like nothing in the world sometimes
That I was super scared
And we were all a train-wreck
And also somehow making it
I think I might’ve died there twice
And I would do it all again
I’m a nihilist, a soldier, an OCD-machine
Or I’m a healthy baby-girl
Who traded sunshine for disease
But when my head hit my cheap pillow
I could tell I had a heart
And I wanna tear this fascist Milky Way apart
‘Cause someone loved me
Someone ***’ loved me
All my filthy life I loved someone I barely knew
Goddamn it, I was worth something
I ***’ learned something
And it felt better in my mouth than fresh warm food
I guess I loved you
I guess I really loved you
All my filthy life I loved someone I barely knew
And now you’re over there
And I’m way over here
What am I gonna do?
I don’t wanna feel better
No one’s ever gonna love me like that again
I don’t wanna get over you
I wanna sit with you in bed
I don’t wanna feel better
(I don’t wanna feel better)