Searching By Xan Griffin Lyrics
Feels like my whole life’s in a disarray
I say I’m alright but honestly I’m not okay
What happened to the head I had on my shoulders
I guess this is what happens when you’re getting older
At 17 I thought I had it all figured out
Doing music is the only thing I dreamed about
But all the passion I had it seemed to leave me
Feels like my soul departed from my body
So now I fill that void with *** and drugs
Psychedelic *** and smokin’ on nugs
Thinking that it’s gonna reignite that Fire
Burning desire, I’m lost and now I’m
(Chorus) x2
Searching for, for the answers
I can’t cope, with this cancer
Lost no hope
Maybe I should end it all
(Verse 2)
I know what I have is a blessin’
If I’m being grateful why the *** am I stressin’
Maybe it’s the universe tryna teach me a lesson
That things get harder once you graduate adolescence
This *** is taking a toll on my personal life
Making me bitter towards my girl and family I –
Never knew what depression would ever feel like
Until I lost my drive
I’m soundin’ like a *** drama queen
Just want you to know how much this means to me
Music’s my oxygen and I cannot breathe
Looking for inspiration so now I’m
(Chorus) x2
Searching for, for the answers
I can’t cope, with this cancer
Lost no hope
Maybe I should end it all
