Lonely By Marlon Craft
i’m lonely. i could turn a W to an L
i’m lonely. i could take something wonderful make it hell
i been tryna fill a void i don’t understand i don’t know its shape
eyes closed tryna fit different *** in this empty space
to no avail, i’m lonely it’s cold as hell
in the part of my soul where love and the noble notions dwell
I’m lonely, i don’t get what i’m looking for but i search on
tryna make a map of places where I’ve never gone
i’m lonely. *** ain’t everybody?
i wash my head with this human condition, but i don’t feel cleansed i feel lonely yo
been avoiding time with myself, and now i owe me though
every time we together i focus on something phony
i’m lonely, but i don’t wanna settle
sometimes i’d rather be unhappy than to be alone
tell myself i need to bone but truth is that i need a home
i been rationalizing time that’s spent with people that don’t inspire me
bein’ lonely sucks I’m startin to lose my spirit’s trust
scared of what i want i been starting to fear my lust
if i can’t tell myself the whole truth than the lyrics must
like i should come here to stroke but i know i came here to bust/
man-made most of my woes be
feel like we do half what we do ‘cause we bored, we just be lonely
i feel like most people’d rather use me than to know me
i feel like I’m a *** cuz i got it good but be feeling bad/
And cockiness is just fear in drag
i see a lot of Ru Pauls of emotions
i say i ain’t judgin’ a lot, but i do and i know it
wish i was more easy going, maybe i wouldn’t feel lonely/
But sometimes we aint inclined to be the men we wanna be
Like ***, without this critical lens, i couldn’t see
but i don’t know, cuz theres a lot of things i thought i couldn’t be
and I’m starting to become all them, maybe theres hope for us/
this the most self involved and the most communal rhyme
we all in search of people who can relate
their absence negative space, *** without em there is no alone
so i know they out their fo’ me or i wouldn’t feel lonely/
i remember, when it wasn’t cool to feel lonely
then somewhere along the way kid cudi made it ok
but now we fetishize it it’s a style to be tried n’
take this pill if you don’t like it, you don’t have to feel lonely/
And that aint never been me, but i aint that far
buzz buzz goes the sound of the anti-depressant
notifications, i’ma need me three grams of some mentions
tell me you like the online me so the real me don’t feel so lonely/
I’m jus being real homie, this aint a sad song
this ain’t a mad song, but i do worry
‘cause, i been tryna write some next level *** lately
and this is it, so I’m scared that my loneliness makes me/
like do i need it to shine, what if i leave it behind
will i die young if i continue to just bleed from my mind
And i, guess thats something only time can show me
For now i gotta go, *** i’m late to meet the homies. lonely
